To Live Would Be and Awfully Big Adventure....

Edges, School, and Just Stuff!!!

2012-02-01T18:52:00.000-08:00

I know it has been a million years, and I am really trying to get better at this blogging thing! I am not sure that anyone even reads this, but it is good for me to do. I am really bad a keeping a personal journal, so this is really one of the only ways I have to look back on things that I have done and remember my life.

So, what is new in the world of me??

I am sad to say not much! I am super busy with work, and now starting school again, I am pretty much super boring!! I am behind already in school, and so stressed I can't even see straight! So really, that is all my life consists of at the moment....

I did conquer one of my biggest fears and insecurities two-ish weeks ago. I auditioned for a musical theater song cycle. It is basically a show with only songs, no dialogue. I know what you are all thinking: " Laney, you never sing in front of people??" I KNOW RIGHT!!!! This is why this is such a big deal for me! I was very proud of myself for even auditioning. I was terrified about it, and almost backed out. I knew that this was something I needed to do for me, or I would regret it for the rest of my life. So I got a song ready with the help of the amazing Julie Neish, and showed up for my audition. I was shaky, sweaty, felt sick, and was all around a hot mess! I almost left again, but having the amazing friends I do, they all forced me to stay!

I have to say that I totally sucked in my audition. I was so scared and I forgot the words halfway through and had to start again. I wasn't very loud (which isn't new for me), but I just tried to act my butt off in hopes they wouldn't notice what was in my mind awful singing! Turns out it wasn't as awful as I thought and I got a part! I know right?!?!?! I am super scared, but so excited!! I am singing a solo song called "Man of my Dreams" that I LOVE!! It is so much fun! I am also singing a duet with Jeff Fink called "I Hmmm You", and also in some group numbers! I think it is going to be very fun and I am excited for the challenge to overcome my fears!

Other than that, I am very boring! Work, school, rehearsal, and home! haha I promise I will get better at this blogging thing, and hopefully have much more interesting things to talk about!! ;)

Joyce Ileen Savage

2012-01-21T07:19:00.000-08:00

I know that I am the worst at this!! The past few months have been insane, and has kept my attention away from my blog. Though lots has happened, I would like to talk about a very special person.

My incredible Great Grandmother Joyce Savage passed away in December. For anyone that didn't know her, she was one of the most amazing people I have ever had the honor of having a part of my life. She never had a bad thing to say about anyone, and loved everyone like family. It didn't matter if she was meeting you for the first time, or had known you for years, you were a dear friend in her eyes.

Because of health issues, she was unable to have children of her own. This didn't stop her from being a wonderful mother. She adopted 13 children, of different ages, and loved them and cared for them as if they were her own. She had to suffer through the loss of some of those children, and watch others fall away from the Gospel, but still loved them just the same.

She didn't have an easy life, but I have never met someone with a greater love for our Father in Heaven. Though she had reasons, she was never bitter or angry with life. She loved life and her smile and energy were contagious.

She was also one of the most beautiful, classy women I have ever met. She would have dinner on the table, the house spotless, the socks mended and the ironing done all in a skirt, heels, and pearls. She also ran a successful real estate business along with a home, and made it look so easy.

I am so grateful to have been able to help take care of her during the last bit of her life, and I treasure the moments I had with her. She will always be an example to me of the way to live my life and be a better Latter Day Saint.

I love you Grandma Joyce- "I got that kiss falling off"

Angie Walukonis

2011-09-11T19:24:00.000-07:00

So my Disney Sister and best friend is the opinions editor of her college paper the Ferris State Torch. She started out writing more news articles, interviewing, finding facts, and all that goes with it. She really liked it and is really great at it! She got moved to opinions editor this year, and though I believe she is amazing at this too, she is finding it to be more difficult. She wrote an article recently, I finally got to read it tonight, and I have to say that I really liked it. It is really well written, and I respect her for taking on such a controversial and tabu topic. She has received a lot of hate mail for this. My heart goes out to her!!

Here is the article:

http://www.fsutorch.com/2011/09/07/opinions/we-don’t-need-god/

Little Update....Finally!!!

2011-07-22T19:56:00.001-07:00

So, I know that I am THE WORST blogger ever!! I always promise to do better, then never do, so I will try harder....promise. haha. So what had been going on with me since May.....kinda a lot.

To start, I took a trip back to Florida in June to visit my Disney family. I LOVED being there again! Though it was painfully hot, I had the best time! I got there at like 10:00 Tuesday night and my wonderful Disney Sister Angie and Joey were waiting for me! She even had a vanilla bean from Starbucks waiting for me!! I sure love them! We went to eat, then to her apartment to get her things. She lives in the Disney housing, and the rule is that guests have to be out by 1:00 am. Since staying with her was not an option, my other friend Beth said I could stay with her. After Angie got her things ready, we were prepared for a very confusing (we had never been to Beth's apartment, and we weren't sure where the streets she gave us as directions were.....) drive to her place. Come to find out, she lives right across the street from Angie's apartment, so it worked out great!! Angie also gave me my early birthday present that night. A really cute green Disney bag, an autograph book for the very important characters I would meet there, a Donald Duck magnet, a Donald Duck pin, and a gift card!! She is so wonderful!

The next day we hit our first park Animal Kingdom! We did everything we could! I love that park, it was a great way to start! After that, we went to Downtown Disney. Angie and I had decided before I left that we would go there and make matching t-shirts. We got them made and they looked amazing!!

Thursday we went to Hollywood Studios!! We saw a ton of shows, did Rockin' Rollercoaster (favorite ride) and a bunch of other things! We even saw Phineas and Ferb!! I KNOW RIGHT!!! haha Love them!!

Friday Angie had to work, so I stayed with my other good friend Allison (I shared a room with her first then with Angie...). We hit Downtown Disney and Cast Connection for some shopping. Then Angie met up with us again at Downtown Disney to see Cars 2. We were at Earl of Sandwich when it started raining super hard and we had to walk to the other side of Downtown to get to the AMC. By the time we got there it looked like we had jumped in a pool. haha So much fun! The movie was so cute, and the little girl sitting next to me was SOO excited! She couldn't even stand it! She kept yelling things at her mom..."MOM, LIGHTING McQUEEN!!!" The mom would keep telling her to be quiet and apologizing to me...I said it was no big deal, it was so cute!! We had a great time in the movie!!

Saturday we went to Epcot! It also rained on us here too! We had a good time at the park, even though we were wet!!

Sunday we went to spend the day with some of Angie's family. They were so much fun!! We laughed soo hard! They took us on a tour of some parts of Florida that were gorgeous!! Then they took us to a place called the Salty Dog. I was looking at the menu and freaked out cause it said that the Man Vs. Food's Adam Richman had been there!! I got the Salty Dog (pretty much the best corn dog I have ever had put in a bun). When Adam was there, he got it with all the toppings he could, I didn't do that, but it was still very exciting!! Great day!!

The last day was Magic Kingdom! Best way to end the trip! We watched the new castle show, and wished! The best firework show!! So many memories! Angie and I wore our matching shirts...I didn't want to leave. We stayed til around midnight, got my stuff, and went to Allison's house. My flight left at 6:00 am so we just stayed up until Joey came to get us for the airport...then I came home!

It was a wonderful trip! I LOVED being back there with my friends and everything!!

I also had a birthday! I am now 21!! Wow huh!! haha

Other than that...not much! I will try to do better with the blogging thing!! Promise!!

Baptism

2011-05-14T19:47:00.000-07:00

My cousin Avery Kira got baptized today. It was a wonderful baptism!! She looked very pretty, the talks were good, and The Spirit was definitely there! It made me think back to my baptism. It was almost 13 years ago, so I don't remember it too well, but I will never forget it. It was back when they were combining the baptism of the kids that turned eight close to each other. I shared my day with my friend at the time Hayley. I remember my Grandpa gave a talk about repentance. He put a backpack on my back and explained that with every sin (or in this case rock that symbolizes sin) we become weighed down. Each rock was a sin and it was placed in the backpack until it was so heavy it was very uncomfortable. He explained that through my Father in Heaven I can be forgiven and my sins will be lifted, or taken out of the backpack. I remember being so excited, but so nervous. I am so grateful to have parents that taught me, and continue, to teach me the importance of the Gospel. I am grateful for the church and having the standards I have. I am also grateful for a my cousins that have been baptized and will be baptized. They also teach me everyday through their innocent example!!

It was also wonderful to see all the Priesthood holders in our family that came to do the confirmation. It is such a powerful thing to see the men with the Priesthood stand in a circle. There is such a power and reverence the is just amazing!!

Mommy

2011-05-08T05:55:00.000-07:00

So I know it has been a million years since I posted, I am sorry. I get so annoyed when people don't post in forever, then I do the same thing. I will try to be better at that.

I have the best Mom in the world, I know that everyone says that, but its true. She is so patient with me, and that is a miracle with me!! She gives me the best advice, but doesn't push me to do anything. She will talk to me for hours about anything be it boys, clothes, my insecurities, or just life in general, without passing any judgements. We dance in the kitchen, sing loud in the car, and laugh all the time! She is so beautiful inside and out. She has a quiet confidence that I hope to have one day. Everyday she teaches me by example to be the best women I can be. There have been some major challenges and struggles in her life and she has taken them on with grace and that is something I am learning to do. She is always kind to people, and has a smile for everyone. I realized while I was in Florida, being so far away from her, just how much I took for granted. I was so grateful that I could call her at anytime and talk to her about anything. There were even times when I would forget about the time difference and call her super early in the morning. She always answered though..

There is SOOO much more I could say about this amazing women! One day I hope to be even half the woman and mother she is. I love you Mommy, Happy Mother's Day!!

Hmmmmm......Really??

2011-04-21T14:23:00.000-07:00

So yesterday someone that I am friends with on Facebook posted this on their wall

Dear parents, Jasmine was in a relationship with a dirty homeless boy named Aladdin. Snow White lived alone with 7 men. Pinnochio was a liar. Robin Hood was a thief. Tarzan walked around without clothes on. A stranger kissed sleeping beauty and she married him. Cinderella lied and snuck out at night to attend a party. We've been fed this crap since we were one. And you wonder why we rebel?

Ok, this really bothered me....

This is so not accurate!! Anyone who knows me knows that I have a very HUGE soft spot for anything Disney! I love it!! It will forever hold a very special place in my heart for many different reasons, so if you say something against it, I will tell you how I feel about it....and I did!!

I commented to the effect of.....Well, the Brothers Grimm wrote most of those stories and they were much worse. Ariel in the end killed herself, and the sisters in Cinderella cut their feet to be able to fit in the glass slipper. Disney made them about love and following your dreams, lets not forget that.

Here is the thing....each of these stories have a moral and life lesson!!

Aladdin: Ok, the whole point of this story is to follow your heart, go for your dreams, and great things will happen. So I am not sure why it is so bad that she married him and all that.....this one totally confuses me....

Snow White: Her step mother tried to kill her for Heaven's sake.....the seven little men didn't try to kill her. They did all they could to keep her safe, its not like they were all over her! Come on people!!

Pinnochio: K, he did do some pretty bad things, but there was a punishment before the reward. He got swallowed by a whale!! I'm sorry, but when I was little, that made me not really want to run away from home, or do anything bad!! But again, lessoned learned....

Robbin Hood: He was a thief, he took from the greedy, selfish rich to give to the poor......hmmmm....yup, I can see how teaching your children not to be selfish and to help out those less fortunate could be a terrible thing....

Tarzan: First of all, he was raised by monkeys...do they wear clothes?!?!!? Second, have you ever talked to a male?? They for some weird reason like to be naked....just sayin.....and he was raised by monkeys!!!!!

Sleeping Beauty: The real story is horrible. I have only heard, never read....but he doesn't kiss her and bring her back to life right away. He takes advantage of her, she gets pregnant with twins. They leave her asleep and use her as an incubator, then wake her up....awful. Disney turned it into a nice story about love, finding your prince, and always believing something magical can happen.

Cinderella: Like I said, the real story was awful. Besides the fact that she was invited to the party and told that she could go. She was about to leave when her horrible step-sisters ripped her dress. She got a new dress and went. She didn't disobey anyone. She went to the ball, she had permission to go. So there! haha

Someone commented and said that Belle lived with a beast that treated her poorly. She did it to save her father from dying...she gets a pass. At the end true love and following your heart wins.

Ariel was also mentioned. They said that she lied about herself and to her father to get a man. That is true....but she, like Pinnochio, got a pretty hefty punishment, so I think the kids get the picture.

I have seen the crap kids watch now a days, and really?? They are crude, disrespectful, full of lying and cheating and everything else. Now, it seems to me that I would rather my child watch a movie about following your heart, then one about being disrespectful.

Disney made these movies to get people away from the real world for a few hours and to let them believe in something wonderful again. Who doesn't watch a Disney movie and feel so happy after?! I guess its silly that I got so upset, but come on. If you are going to attack something, at least have some weight behind it.

If you made it to the end of this, you're amazing, or really bored!

Thoughts and ramblings.....

2011-04-20T06:28:00.000-07:00

First of all, I pretty much still LOVE my new car! My first payment isn't due til May 15, so I really love it right now! haha I love the feeling of not worrying if my car will even make it down the road, or get me to work. If it was cold outside, forget it. That car wouldn't even start. I gat stranded four-ish times in the Bashas parking lot, my old cars favorite place to die. I did love that car though! It was unique, kinda odd, and totally me. My new car is amazing though! I always want to drive it, I am so proud of it, and want to show it off all the time!! I still don't have a name for it though. My last car's name was Gary....so I am trying to think of a name for this one..

Also, I am going to start teaching dance again. Julie Moore is opening a studio and she has asked me to teach for her! I can't wait! I haven't danced really since before going to Florida, so it will be so wonderful to get back into it. It is such an amazing feeling! If you're having a bad day, there is an outlet. If you're having the best day ever, you can show you're happiness and gratitude through dance. Such a beautiful thing! I do need to get my butt back in shape though...oh man!

I still can't wait to go to Florida in June!! I am so bad when waiting to go somewhere. Normally my family jokes about not telling me we are going somewhere until right before we leave because I am so impatient! Its so true....but just so you know, even if you pack your clothes two weeks early, it doesn't mean you get to leave earlier. haha I will try to be patient....

I am almost 21. Gross huh?? It is so weird! I used to look at kids my age and think of how old they seemed! I figured they had to know a pretty good amount about stuff! Now that I am that age I realize that I was wrong! haha. I am not that old, and I don't really know a whole lot about anything!! haha But a new adventure!

I did it!!!

2011-04-10T10:39:00.000-07:00

So, I finally put my fears, doubts, stupidity, and really just my brain, aside and just booked the tickets!!! I am going to visit my Disney family at the end of June, the 21-28!! I CANNOT WAIT!!!!!! (If you couldn't tell from the all caps and million exclamation point used in only like three sentences!! ) I don't know why I can't just make a decision, but I did and I am so happy! Happy Birthday to me!! haha

My Disney sister Angie is SOO pumped! There is still around two months til I leave, but we are already planning everything we want to do! Knowing the ins and outs of Disney World is going to save us time, and really help us get the most out of our time! We are going to do all the stuff we did when we lived there, all the things we wished we had done, and anything else we can think of, all in six days! We once did all four Disney parks in one day, I think we can handle it! Maybe! Really, it will just be amazing to see all my friends again, have a great time, and not have to worry about anything for a week! Now I just need to save up so I can eat while I am there, and get my chunky butt in gear so I can look half decent too! haha I will keep ya posted on the plans!!

A Bridge to China

2011-04-03T17:39:00.000-07:00

This was the neatest thing. Right after Conference was over, this show came on called "A Bridge to China". It was all about a children's choir from Beijing, and some amazing dancers from inner Mongolia that were chosen to come to America and perform on this tour. They started out in Hawaii and ended up in Utah. It was like a 16 day tour. These kids were amazing. They were trained, disciplined, and and just incredibly talented. The choir was the chosen elementary children. Over a thousand students auditioned, and only 100 kids are chosen. Then they train for 2-3 years and are pretty much the best of the best. The dancers are from a prestigious performing arts college.

The thing that impressed me the most is seeing how our culture differs from theirs. In one point, the kids were playing a game, and it talked about how they don't really get to play a lot back home because they have too many responsibilities at home. These kids got to play, explore a whole new culture, but at the same time, teach their host families so much! I have always been very interested in different cultures, so this was my show! I loved it...if you couldn't tell.

On a different note, my car shopping experience. I took my Uncle Sam, he is pretty much the best at car shopping. We looked all over the mountain, and test drove many cars. I almost got a Dodge Charger, but alas, it didn't work out. We went to Hatch in Show Low and test drove a few more cars. I liked the Mazda 6, but by this point, we had car shopping for 6 hours. I was totally beat. My brain shut off, and I just wanted to sleep. (It didn't help that I had been working a 7 day stretch, and had been at work since 6:00 am). We went back the next day and I got it. I love it! It is so pretty, and it always turns on, stays running, and has a wonderful AC and heater. I love my car! I am going to have to get a picture of it on here! But that is the news...I have a pretty new car!

So much I want to do!!

2011-03-13T19:54:00.000-07:00

I have figured out my problem...well one of many! haha. There are SOO many things I want to do in my life. So many things I would love to do! I would love to go into Culinary, become a chef, open a bakery, and make people happy through the food I love!

I would love to go into art or photography, nursing, acting, millions of things!! SOO many things I would love to do, so many things to choose from!! My biggest problem is fear...

I am afraid of growing up I think. I am afraid to take out loans for school, car, everything. I am afraid to find a place to live...not that I am afraid to live on my own because I have done that, but finding a place to live and someone to room with. I am afraid to be in debt. I am terrified that I wont be good at whatever field I choose. That I will get into it and realize I was never good at it, it is not really what I want to do, and I will have to find something else to do. I know that if I put my faith in the Lord, it will all work out the way it is supposed to, but that doesn't mean I can't be scared out of my mind!! I am not sleeping well because, well, its time to make a choice and make it happen. I am putting it off because I am scared!! I hate to admit it, but there it is....

What if I choose wrong, I am awful at what I choose, or I get so far in debt that I am stuck....sigh.

Life is what happens to you when you are busy making other plans right. So I guess I jump in with both feet, pray my heart out, and see how it goes. It always works out in the end right.

I am so grateful for such a supportive family! No matter what I choose, even if I am I awful at it, I know they will support me in whatever I do!

Crossroads

2011-03-07T17:36:00.000-08:00

So not a whole lot is new with me. Just work and all that jazz! My family and I did go to the Valley this weekend to hang out with Malori and Jon. It was wonderful!! We went to the mall, the zoo, and really just hung out and had a great time! I loved being there, I didn't want to come home!! The weather was amazing, it was awesome being with the family! We always have the best time together, laughing and joking. I wish I was still there!! I think we all needed a break!

I am trying to make a decision....I will tell you about it (you all know how I am about this! haha)

So when I was younger, until I was about twelve, I wanted to be an OB. Weird for a kid to want to be that, I know, but I did. Just did. I just recently changed my major to nursing because of thoughts about the economy. I thought I would go into nursing, be set, and it would work. But then talking with my family, the thought is to change back to my original plan...let me tell you...

When I was twelve, I looked at my birthday cake and realized I wanted to do that! I started to learn how to decorate cakes, and my love of that blossomed into a love for food. I wanted, until very recently, to go into culinary arts and become a chef. I love food, the culture, and everything about it. I would want to specialize in baking and pastry. I wanted to open a bakery. I was going to call it Short and Sweet. I had it all figured out. Then I thought about the economy, and that just didn't make sense. So I switched to nursing....and here we are. I don't know what to do. I am conflicted.....so ya. That is the story!

Other than that, I am just working! I am trying to decide what I am going to do, so I can know if I should stay here, or go to the valley. I will need to buy a new car before I go to the valley. My poor little car would not do well there!! haha Anyway...that's all!!

Disney

2011-03-01T15:01:00.000-08:00

So I know everyone is dying to know about my application to the Disney College Summer Alumni Program. K....maybe you haven't been dying to know, maybe more like kinda curious, but still. I have been waiting and waiting and I finally got the email I was waiting for. The answer to the question on everyone's mind "Did she get in or not?"

I am here to answer that question.....I did not get in.

They didn't have a place for me but did offer me a chance to go to Disneyland. Now, I would love to go to Disneyland, but the real reason I was going back was to see my friends and everything again. Disneyland is still very "Magical" to me. Cheesy, I know, but still. I have some of the best memories with my family there, and I want to keep it that way. Disneyworld is more like home to me. Anyway, I will be staying in Arizona for now, and that is that. I am fine with it, I almost knew I wasn't going to get in before I got the email so I could prepare I guess.

I have really been praying about this and wondering what I should do. I guess He knows what He is doing. I put all my faith in my Father in Heaven, and He knows best. I am sure there is a reason I will not be going. I am just grateful to know for sure now.

Random

2011-02-22T16:30:00.000-08:00

So, I my little brother told me this story the other day. Now, I know that it probably should have offended me or something, but I have to say it made me feel pretty good about myself. Here is the story.......

On Saturday my Mom, Brother, and I went to Wal-Mart. In order for this to have a real effect, I have to tell you how I looked. It was raining all day, I had just gotten off work, my hair was in an ugly pony, no make-up, I threw on a hoodie and jeans and we went. I got rained on and just look pretty awful. Tanner went to look at the video games. There were two other guys standing there looking at the games. My Mom and I walked in the next isle and started looking at something else. Tanner said that one of the guys said to the other "Hot girl at 3:00" the other guys asked where looking around. The first guys said "She is on the other side, she is really short so you have to look over." Well my brother being the boy that he is, he went to see who the hot girl was. Guess who it was?? Me! haha. Poor guy, thought is was a hot girl and it was me. haha. He was sure cause I was the only girl there. But for looking as awful as I did, it makes a girl feel good! At least it made me feel good anyway!

So there it is...I never think I look that good, but apparently some guys do! haha Oh well, its a funny story anyway!!

Oh, I got an email saying that my status to go to Disney is pending. I will find out some time before April 30th. Long wait...so keep your fingers crossed.

Just Thoughts....

2011-02-13T12:50:00.001-08:00

So....I haven't posted in a while, and to be honest I don't really have anything special to post about. So warning now, this is just going to be me rambling on...so I won't be offended at all if you don't read this, or only read it because you are bored to tears or procrastinating homework. (long sentence)

Hmmmm....I made an appointment to get my baby Olivia fixed on March 8th. The poor baby is gonna hate me because she is getting fixed, and getting her shots all on the same day. I am taking two days off so I can get her there the first day, then watch her the next. I am going to take her to her vet. I called the Humane Society, and it was going to be cheaper. But after thinking about it, I just felt better taking her to her vet. I just had a feeling I needed to go here, I can get her fixed and shots all at once, and it is only like ten minutes away from my house. The Humane Society was cheaper, but it is an hour-ish drive there because I live on the other side of Snowflake. So with two trips there, it would almost be spending the same amount cause of gas. So, she is going here, and will be so sad. But I will be so happy not to have to worry about that mess anymore!! Yay!!

So Valentine's Day is coming up....I am not really super excited about it. I have never really been a big fan of this day. When you are little, everyone gets Valentine's from everyone in class because it's just fair. Then you get older, and it is just very stressful. It is either very stressful finding the perfect gift for the special someone in your life so he doesn't think you awful. Or it's stressful because you don't have a special someone in your life, so the whole time your brain is going through all the reasons why you don't have someone so share the day with. I am in the single girl category, and though I am not searching for a boy right now, it would be nice to have someone tomorrow. There is still a lot that I want to do, so I am not worried about finding Mr. Right right this minute, but it would still be nice. Oh well, sorry for sounding negative for a minute. To all of you that love this day, I hope it is spectacular for you! But remember that you shouldn't only do special things tomorrow because it's Valentine's Day. I think you should do the special things all the time.

I hope you all have a wonderful Valentine's day!!

Pink (P!nk) - Fuckin' Perfect (Music Video) HQ [2011 NEW]

2011-02-04T17:56:00.000-08:00

Ok, so this video is amazing!!! I know there is a bad word in the title, but I promise you that it is the only bad word in the whole song......

I love this because it shows that you don't have to be the skinny, average, pretty girl to be happy and "perfect". I love Pink for this. I am not this extreme, but I really like how she shows that you can be amazing just the way you are! I hope you all love this as much as I do!!

Just Thoughts....

2011-02-01T07:00:00.000-08:00

So I was getting annoyed that people haven't posted in a while, then I realized that I haven't posted in like a million years....so now I am. The problem is that I am pretty much just working and that is about it, so I am pretty boring. I am following the pack and trying to loose 30 lbs before this summer. I swear, once you put the word diet out there, you automatically become hungry all the time. haha. I am trying, but not doing nearly as well as I thought I would. sigh....

I am still working at the Carriage House and I love it!! You get to hear all sorts of stories about what life was like when they were my age. It is so interesting to think of how different it is. We can do almost anything with our phones now-a-days, when they didn't even have a phone. I almost thought..."wow, I have it so easy compared to them..." but then I thought more about it. We have different challenges, temptations, and ways we handle it. I don't have to milk the cows every morning, house cleaning is easier now, and I don't have to wash my clothes by hand. The technology has made life so much easier, and so much harder all at once. Now I have to worry about people stealing my identity, creepers learning where I live, and who even knows that crazy stuff on the internet. I have to keep throwing money into a car because it's the only way to get around anymore, try to keep my clothes modest when the fashion is to show it off, keep my standards up in a world of hate, and try not to loose confidence in myself when the media tells me how fat I am.

Don't get the idea that I hate the world from all of this. I love living in this time. I think I would have died if I had to wear a dress everyday. I love central heating because I don't do well with cold. Without the modern medicine today, I wouldn't even be alive right now. Plus, all the toys we have now are totally awesome!! It is a hard world out there, but an amazing one too!!

On a different note, I have the cutest puppy in the world! It was like 4:00 am and I roll over to see my dog laying just like I was. Head on the pillow and the rest of her in the blankets. This happens often, but then I moved a little to get more comfortable, and she put her paw on my face. Kinda between my nose and mouth. Then I move again and she puts both paws up there...so I guess I was bothering her. haha. She has the biggest heart for such a little dog. She LOVES my Mom, sometimes I think more than she loves me. She would be the happiest dog if someone would just sit and hold her all the time so she could snuggle ya. Just sweet. It is funny that dogs have such different personalities. I just love my little Olivia!! I will try to get a pic on here of her soon!

I have my phone interview for Disney on Friday. I am a little nervous. I felt like I sounded SO dumb the last time, so I am a afraid of doing that again. I guess I didn't do too badly though cause I passed and went to Fl...but you always worry. I will let you know how it went, but keep your fingers crossed at 5:20 pm our time. haha

Anyways...thanks for listening to my ramblings..have a wonderful day!!

Choices

2011-01-27T07:05:00.000-08:00

So, I have a pretty big decision to make, and to anyone that knows me, they know I am the most indecisive person ever! I take forever to make a choice. I have to weigh the options, think about others opinions, pray, make a list, pray more, maybe cry a little(just kidding-kinda), ask my parents and family for the millionth time, then decide. And that is just to decide if I should buy that shirt or not...haha. I do take a long time to choose. I just get nervous that I will pick the wrong one, disappoint someone, or that I wont be good at whatever I choose.

Well I have another choice to make. I have the opportunity to go back to Disney for the Summer Alumni College Program. It is from May 16-August 12. I really really miss Disney, and I do really want to go, but I have some other things to think about. I would have to quit my job here and hope and pray I could have it back when I get back. I will have to leave my puppy and my family for three months, and that is sad. It is a good chunk of money to get there and back...A lot of things for practical reasons. I also want to go. I would have the chance to do a different role as Disney. I wouldn't be able to do the entertainment role, so that is exciting and sad. My roommate and best friend Angie is going too, so it would be so much fun!!

I have a lot of things to think about, and I don't know what I am going to do. I did apply for the program so that I will have the option and don't miss my chance. SO....anyways. Life right! haha

Thoughts....

2011-01-14T14:19:00.001-08:00

To everyone who is calling for stricter gun laws in light of what happened in Tucson, may I offer this little tidbit: If guns kill people, then pencils misspell words, cars drive drunk, the knife did it not O.J., and spoons made Oprah fat! Remember: Hold the person accountable for their actions, not the means they chose to utilize!!!

Now, I don't know, or pretend to know, anything about politics. I know that it is extremely important, and I should know more. It is a resolution, if you will. But with the bit I do know, I have some opinions. Now, please correct me if I am wrong, and feel free to offer your opinions too...but here goes...

So it is mostly about the recent shootings in Tucson. It was an awful tragedy, and I think the person responsible should be punished greatly!! I don't however, believe that this should be turned into a political stand for anyone. I think that the fact that they are blaming this on Arizona's "lenient gun policies" is a load of bull. My thought is that if a person is wanting to shoot someone, the fact that the gun they are using is illegal isn't going to make a big difference at this point. By taking the guns away, they are only taking my right to safety away. By this I mean that the bad people in the world will have a gun, and us law abiding citizens will not have anyway to protect ourselves. I think that this was not a political statement, but a horrendous act of hate by a deranged person. He had some serious issues, and he should take the blame for it!!

I also wonder why the President came to the memorial for the victims. I understand that he felt that he needed to make a statement and whatever, but he could have done it via satellite. There was no reason for him to come. It became more about people wanting to see him, and him wanting to look good than the victims and their families. It turned into a publicity stunt, not a memorial service. We need to remember them, and give our support anyway we can.

Like I said, I don't know a lot about politics. I do have my opinions, and I could very well be wrong. But this is a little taste of how I feel about this. If you made it through this, you are wonderful!! I pray for the families and the victims of this shooting, and hope this all works out for the best.

Hmmmmm.....

2011-01-13T08:36:00.000-08:00

There is something wrong with me!! I am sure...I cannot get the cuttest blog on the block backgrounds to work on here...grrr....and I am kinda frustrated. I don't really know why that is, but it just ends up looking like it does now. What is going on.....If anyone has any thoughts...I am all ears. Thanks much!!

New blog

2011-01-13T07:01:00.000-08:00

Alright everyone, so I deleted my old blog and started a new one. It kept telling me that I had to upgrade to this new program or something, and it wouldn't let me do anything. The wonderful Miss Nikki tried to help me, but I think I was a lost cause. I saved all my older posts, the ones about Disney, because this was my journal if you will about my time there. I know that is bad, and I should have kept a journal while I was there, but I have never been good at that. So here is the new blog, same name and everything. I hope everyone has been able to find it....and I hope this works out better too. It will be nice to start over at this new point in my life as well.

I can't wait to see what the future holds for me!!

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